There are no better words than those which are heard.




to M. M.


Even without a language

I walk that way

marching towards the watery sun

with anger.

It never rains inside of an egg


I choose to deny

the sea born

in my rib cage

and go on

being allowed to hope.

chairPhoto: Maria Stadnicka


Today all that I knew is gone.

I choose to stay behind,

to count the squashed toads 

on the pavement

with childlike curiosity.

My perfect posture feels no sorrow

the same way 

life does not feel 

when it is the right time.

And waiting with knees bent 

seems ominous.

Everything arrived for me

at the same time 

in the same place,

whilst I was spreading 

fresh grains on the carpet.  

My trace is now palpable,


All things broken by hours 

written on pieces of bone.

But the language has changed.

I am growing at a slow speed 

under the light of an

energy efficient bulb.

My voice has got weapons

which nobody else can use.

Photo: John Stadnicki 

The News Are Not Great

I am able to follow from miles away

the breath of a half asleep night driver

getting on with his load of milk

delivered to a city

where the war stopped.

The man at the steering wheel

does not know I exist.

He has to look forward

to watch his concrete speed 

while I pause,

come close to the window.

I wave at him.

I put a big sign out in the sky

to warn him

the news are not great.

Everything carries on as before.

The motorway traffic,

the search for nothing in particular,

the walk with the dogs 

where once was a meadow.

Photo: Maria Stadnicka 

The Fear of Lines

If I’d say it in words

only to you that

I am not scared,

no matter how soft the sound,

my voice would repeat after me

the impossible truth. 

It is not the fear of whiteness,

nor the lack of road signs in solitude,

nor the absence of skin in death.

It is holding a gun against 

a butterfly’s head 

just about to take off

when knowing 

the meaning of a precise line 

drawn with a historic pencil 

across the lands which once

belonged to the earth, not to people.

Photo: John Stadnicki 

Cubes and Other Lessons

I could give it a name

associate simple sounds

make it be 

love with the neck stretched on the wooden box

but it is 

nothing less than 

my inflated lungs

in your chest.

Face to Face

I am counting
seventy three white hairs
and get the courage to
pluck them out of my skull
with a pair of tweezers.
But soon, very soon, the locks
fight their way through
with the force of an unforeseen hurricane.

Today face to face
me and the loss of having to part with
each significant growing stage
against the earth which
reclaims my flesh
after a journey defined by
all that was mine.

The bottles of ink drank to
suppress the hunger for words
the denial of motherhood and, yes,
the unbearable presence of love
all awake
summoned by chance
exist at the root of my quiet hands.



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